Yes, 1 year already...

孤家寡人度过了27个情人节，这第28个应该和之前没有什么差异。习惯就好，一如临睡之前一定会先来一杯暖暖的红茶。

今晚，茶匙与杯子发出的敲击声显得额外冷清。

时间被搅掉了一大把，而那渴望爱与被爱的心情仍在杯底里留香。

回忆似树

人如疆土

因此执著

这个赤道漂腻了习惯已久的夏日绵雨。该留恋的被冲解的支离破碎，该淡忘的却累积一角顽强滋生着，迟迟不肯蒸发。 即有雨无雨的日子对我们来说都已是种无所谓了。

有一天，太阳出来了。

Think I am better at leaving little bitchy comments in other people's LJ than updating mine, but I promised Erwin that I will be more conscientious in my updates and a promise is a promise.

Went back to office on Saturday just to submit my performance appraisal report. Realized that I have more to exemplify on the 'other activities and contributions' than my core KPI's. Perhaps UOB would like to employ me on a full-time basis instead to spearhead all the work-improvement, staff welfare and recreational committees and to revive the dying Tattler committee which is so not doing anything right now.

Of course, my dearest colleague, Audrey had a field day gloating over my 'super-kena-conned' experience. Attended a Sisley workshop on Friday night at Hyatt, one of the perks of being a UOB RM, where we had a mini facial followed by a hand massage, I swear my hands were smoother than James's after the hot-mittens treatment. Think it was the euphoria-inducing serums/creams slathered on my face that clouded my senses. Paid $140+ for one miserly 50ml moisturizer called the Ecological Compound. Still trying to convince myself that I'm seeing results after 3 applications. Trying darn hard....

I am every salesperson's wet dream. Think ‘请你砍我’ is written all over my face.

Emulsion Ecologique

 

Ecological Compound

Ideally balanced, receptive skin, and a healthy-looking complexion.

Product Profile
An all-purpose formula that works to stimulate and regulate the skin.

 

Centella Asiatica, Ginseng, Rosemary, Hops and Horsetail all work in synergy to dramatically enhance the benefits of the active ingredients. Ecological Compound is formulated with a complex of plants specially selected for their protective, moisturizing and revitalizing action.

 

It works to:

• help skin fight environmental stresses (pollution, cigarette smoke, UV rays),
• restore improved tone and suppleness,
• relieve razor burn and provide enduring comfort.

Directions for Use
Apply morning and night to perfectly cleansed face and throat, either on its own or before another specific cream (moisturizer, nourishing, etc.).

Actually, the full-size bottle which according to the ever-so-helpful sales lady is 'more value for money'. Costs a freaking $240!!! Since I'm such a sucker, I may as well get 'suckered' all the way... So I'm contemplating getting this as well. It's another $130.

Baume Efficace Contour des Yeux et des Levres

Eye and Lip Contour Balm

Smoother, firmer, more supple and radiant-looking skin around the eyes and lips.

Product Profile
A balm specifically formulated to effectively address the appearance of fine lines, skin dryness and under-eye puffiness.

This combination of tomato phytostimulines and botanical proteins has potent stimulating benefits.
It is especially recommended to combat the appearance of under-eye puffiness.

Formulated to protect the most delicate, mobile parts of the face, Baume Efficace helps to:

• prevent the appearance of fine lines and wrinkles,
• decongest and fight skin dryness,
• give a sense of freshness and comfort.

Directions for Use
Use preferably in the morning on perfectly clean skin, before any other product.
Apply Baume Efficace with fingertips, lightly tapping the skin around the eyes and lips. This is a highly active product and may briefly cause a slight tingling sensation during application

Went out with this guy last evening, it was a mistake actually because he was on my do-not-answer hp list. Well, the call came in as a private number on Sunday, dang! Being someone who cannot and do not know how to say 'no', I agreed and the meeting was arranged. Glad that made his day, I was told.

Got my wish of meeting someone who is not into the scene, straight-acting and totally non-bitchy, in other words a nice guy. Problem is, I was mentally ticking him off on his looks, his dressing, his mannerisms, his speech etc. I was surprised to find myself bored when he has been so sweet and accommodating in all aspects. I even turned down his offer to catch Mysterious Skin when I have difficulty finding company to watch it with.

Felt like a mega bastard thereafter by telling him in no uncertain terms, but very politely that we can only be friends. Yet, I am seething in self-loathe for being superficial which I claim to be impervious to.

Then, I read yffar's entry. I am not alone.

Perhaps I am 犯贱. I like guys who don't give a damn about me.

For z139 , I'm never very good at offering words of comfort and hope, so may this entry make you laugh instead. It's so true, we can only be as happy as we allow ourselves to get. With compliments from muffintop .

Too much drama in my life lately which I do not need.

It sucks to be perceived as the perpetual evil wrong-doer when all your remedial actions are deliberately misconstrued. Giving a person some space and time to cool off is perceived as nonchalance; to advocate live and let live means that you have no principles; pretending things never happened and hopefully things blow over automatically labels you as plastic.

Even posting comments on other people's LJs, in our well-intentioned haste to offer words of comfort or encouragement, are we unknowingly taking sides and hurting the other party concerned when we have only heard one end of the story?

Do things really have to reach a point of no return...

I’ve been called a sexually frustrated bitch but after the initial ‘what-the-hell’ indignation, I think it’s apt to the point when I openly joke about it to hide my fragility and despair. I’m still looking for strength in our deepest emotions - may each of us find the one great love, the type that changes everything.

Time is running out...

Mum is taking evil pleasure in spoiling my niece and nephew rotten by constantly doting on them and allowing them to do things which we as kids never dare do to HER! Hinted yet again that if I do not get married soon, she will not be able to help look after my children in future... sigh, she will probably book herself a bed in Woodbridge when the truth comes to light.

If AJ relationships are so fleeting and it's bound to be heartaches one after the other and friends, regardless of the best of intentions will not always be there for you, will a married life with kids be the only solution to a guaranteed companionship come old age?